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so a while ago the keyboard on my laptop was broken. it's made it really irritating to try to do any work on this computer. but I finally figured out that I can install speech recognition  ... or rather set up speech recognition ... on this computer. so now I'm trying to use speech recognition to write this entry, and it's working pretty well. it's not very good with punctuation, but all the whole entirely satisfying.

right now I'm watching house. I  really liked this season premiere in the institution but I was kind of like how can an institution be like that .... wouldn't there be more people like house there?

anyway I don't really have anything actual to say and it's kind of hard to think and use the speech recognition at the same time. I did want to say That the stress thing at work has gotten a lot better. the Celexa that my mom gave me has worked pretty well. I am also getting more used to it at work and to the people there. today I spent the whole day working on a pretty complicated word press installation and I really liked doing that. it was actually a good day.

I have also been trying to get more involved in art scene here. I've been going to galleries and art walks / open studios, and last week that met with volunteer coordinator for a community art charity here. she was pretty great. I also went to  a social media panel last week. one of the speakers talked about the software that the company I work at  makes and it turned out that he's involved in an organization that connects artists with board positions and businesses in Calgary. I hope I'll be able to get involved in that because it sounds fun .

O. K. I  think that had enough dictating for one night. I am pretty impressed, I am must say.


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Oct. 1st, 2009 09:16 am (UTC)

It's really good that you're less stressed at work.. once you get used to being in a place for all those hours every day, and start liking the people you meet there, working doesnt just feel scary and exahsting. At least for me.

and I think its really cool you're getting involved in the art community. You'll probably be meeting some great people.
Oct. 2nd, 2009 01:55 am (UTC)
unfortunately i don't really like them. i mean i don't hate them, they are reasonable as people, but they are not particularly interesting. i don't fit in very well there.

but it's not scary as much anymore. just annoying. which is unfortunate. i'm just a longer-term person than my job is, we're always working on really sort term things that can't have a lot of development or exploration so when I can actually spend some time doing something I've never done before or developing an idea for a longer time I am into that. but those opportunities don't come too often.

and they are kind of weird about unwritten rules. my supervisor says he doesn't like a bunch of rules, but it seems like what he likes is when people just do things the same way and there are no rules around it. i don't do some of thos ethings the same way and it causes strange friction. for example, i'm a total morning worker. i come in at 8 am, feel good working through the morning, and by 4 when i have worked my 7.5 hours I am ready to hit the road. my supervisor seems to be more of a 10 to 6 kind of guy, and he wants me to stay till 5. unfortunatley because i get a ride to the station it's really inefficient for me to get there at 9 and stay till 5. there is no real reason i need to stay until 5 each day and it just makes me mad, and we talked about it and he was like yeah it's fine just let mer know. So today Istart getting ready to leave around 4 and making sure there was nothing else I needed to finish up, and he asks if i have plans. I did, but who cares? I had worked OVER my 7.5 hours, it doesn't matter if I have plans or not, it matters that there is nothing urgent I need to finish, that I have completed my time, and that you don't pay me if I stay extra anyway.

it's juts really frustrating to deal with these kind of things. I have learned from the reading I'm doing what kinds of things motivate me and how this job doesn't fit them -- like the long term issue, and my wish to do things the 'right' way and do a lot of research and investigation to make sure and try some different things, and the importance of the experience of work for me. it's possibly silly but i like being in ... i guess just supportive, harmobonious environments. And I don't mean perfect ones, but ones where you can connect with people and you feel like there is honesty and mutual respect. And here I don't feel like there's an intentional lack of respect but I feel like there's this weird reluctance to trust. I go out of my way pretty far to be trustworthy and I do demand a lot of my superiors, so those things bother me more than maybe they might bother some other people.

But yeah, it is really good that it bothers me a lot less right now.

I hope I do meet cool people at art stuff. I'd like to find a book club but for art here, so I'm starting to put out feelers :)

thanks for saying hi!
Oct. 2nd, 2009 01:55 am (UTC)
Dur, that was me.
Oct. 4th, 2009 11:25 am (UTC)
yeah, I figured. :)

I can totally see how you wouldnt fit in around boring people.. but without some nice people, your day is just really, really long. Which.. is not good. At all.

Your boss sounds like a jerk.. who cares if you do things his way, when you get all the work done, and you're responsible about it? And why shouldnt you work slightly different hours than him ? Its rude of him to feel entitled to criticize you about it. I'm glad youre standing up for yourself in the face of his narrow-mindedness.
The first time I had my boss in the Sheirut throw comments about my dedication or working only 8 hours, I was so apologetic and promised I'd try harder. And four months down the road, working 10 hours a day with 2 hours of busses to get there and back, I finally realised that I needed to tell her to shove it, cause the workload she expects is insane.
Not exactly in those words. But I was happier after I was rid of those ridiculous expectations.

A good work enviroment isnt silly- its really crucial. And its good that you know what you want and what works for you. If you can't build up that trust and easiness in this work place, maybe you'll be on the lookout for something more challenging for you, where you can better enjoy yourself..?

Oct. 6th, 2009 12:06 am (UTC)
And it's funny because in the right place and at the right time, the 10 hour days are fine, but in the wrong place when they aren't necessary and it's just tyrrany, they are soul-killing.

I'm not pulling 10 hour days though, that must have been BRUTAL.
Feb. 21st, 2010 01:25 pm (UTC)
how is it with you lately ? how is 2010 treating you? i keep misspelling what year it is, everything from 2009 to 2020, 2012, its crazy. my mind cannot wrap itself around 2010.
Apr. 29th, 2010 10:23 am (UTC)

hello, absent friend! i hope you get your LJ comments emailed. i just wanted to wish you a happy birthday, i hope things are going good for you!
May. 3rd, 2010 12:14 am (UTC)
Thank you Laur,

that was amazingly nice of you to get in touch. I miss you guys! And obviously comments are emailed :)
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